第一封遗书

今天一大早

收到两封SMS

顿时

我领悟到

说出的东西就不能收回

那短讯一前一后

看完就删除

不懂为何有这样的冲动

平常的我不这么做

时间

是我承诺的衡量限制

前几天的快熟面

顿时让我清楚确定

找到那一分我所要的感觉

也就因为要那一分感觉真正体会

所以才有以前的顺其自然

可惜

她口口声声说我伤害她让她哭

但是

她的短讯也令无情的我

变成了伤痕

同时

给那刚萌芽的感觉彻底埋在底下

那些短讯

我看了觉得很累

所以选择不再回复

那些短讯

显得很矛盾

前一封说不相信我

后一封说相信我

既然你认为我不可靠

就不要矛盾了

因为你的矛盾短讯

也让我无法给予你信任了

你的决定

不再是朋友

我尊敬

今天是我一生

第一封的遗书

把那感觉

先埋进

自己的棺材里

Help The Needs

Today was a happy day for me. Never been so excited before. Being lucky, being helpful, being enjoyable; all came at the same time.


Thanks to Lemon Skin, if I were not waiting for him and watched for the premiering of Battle: Los Angeles, perhaps I would not be experiencing free tickets for MAXX screens. Together with his friend I knew today, Cjay from Petaling Jaya, we bought the tickets together. We were quitle slow at purchasing as we were choosing the seats. All 555 seats were vacant at 1pm but was 80% full at 4pm. The staff, while waiting for us, kept taking with his friend beside. We paid RM11 separately and pushed to him. After printing the tickets, he kept talking and pushed back all the money with tickets for me. I showed a "strange" face to him, still he kept talking. Finally, I did not care and all of us got back our own respective RM11 - Watching free for the first time for 2D movie. I would want to conclude that, I always watched disaster movie with the cheapest price. The last time was 2012 from Roland Emmerich with only RM5.

Let's me post my review here on this movie. Battle: Los Angeles/ World Invasion: Battle LA was the first action blockbuster sci-fiction movie in 2011. As this was an alien invasion disaster movie, I did not put much expectation on it, but still anticipated for it. The first impression on this movie - the trailer was awesome. The second impression on this movie - Columbia Picture/ Sony (Same as 2012) meaning great effects. The third impression on this movie - Soundtracks from Brian Tyler, amazing. The forth impression on this movie - Best opening day gross for 2011 movie. All of these had added marks to this movie which all critics gave a negative reviews. When the movie started, it was the same style as 2012, whereby soundtrack already started with the appearance of Columbia Pictures symbol and continued with the story, 24 hours after the disaster. At this moment, all the patrons had already given full concentration till the end, and I, had given the movie 9/10. When the movie flashed back to before 24 hours, I downgraded it to 8.5/10 due to the shaking of the scenes. It might be logic if it was a war scene (starting from min 10 - the end of movie) but I was still wondering why the director still shook the screen even when it was a meeting scene in the office. The whole movie was the same as previous film of Steven Spielberg's Eagle Eye, with 116 minutes of actions and wars scenes, that made you "high" from beginning till the end. Since it was a disaster movie, it would certainly drive everyone emotionally. With the darkness and scary part of alien murdering human, I was anxious whether the marine soldier will meet with anyone of it when the scene turned into a marine soldier spotting alone for alien. With the sacrifice and losing the love one, I was feeling sad. With the braveness and strength of the marine soldiers, I was really moved. It would really drive one crazy if the movie scenes were occurring in real life. The movie was almost perfect with the arrangement of suitable soundtracks composed by Brian Tyler. Eventually when the marine was going to success, it appeared another big alien which I thought it was in the trailer, but finally at the end, I found out that it was the space ship. As such, I concluded that the ending was smart enough for not claiming the large ship as alien, or else it would certainly ruined the whole movie. Using the theory of laser, the ship, which was the main control center of all the aliens, was destroyed by the last bomb. It was the last 3 minutes of the movie, and by that time, patrons' feeling were going happy for them as well. Another plus for the movie, the design of the aliens were pretty nice and more to robotic style, not like human flesh style. Comparing to Skyline, the latter was a shit. Comparing to Roland's Independence Day, there were actually common ideas there, making the plot actually not so original. Overall, I was satisfied, especially the feeling that the movie brought, and also it delivered what it promised - a war film.

Next, I was wondering whether Lemon Skin brought the luck for me, I managed to buy 2 Jefferson jeans with RM100 (Ori: RM 279.80). This company never sold so cheap before. Considering that good luck should be shared, I also donated RM2 for an old abandoned lady sitting on the bridge connecting Sungai Wang and Lot 10. Even though it was only RM2, it was the largest amount I could see in the cup and it was the only two money notes with all the remains were coins. It was surprising to got free movie tickets, it was excited to watch a great film, it was enjoyable to buy 2 branded trousers with cheaper rates, BUT IT WAS THE GREATEST HAPPINESS to help the needs.  Even though it was not something big, you would feel happy for the whole day, because you help, and help with your true heart; as what was done by those marine in Battle LA, civilian at first.

11.03.2011

I think my blog is going to flooded by dust if I am not making a few more posts.

11.03.2011

Is the black Wednesday for the whole world

Tsunami in Japan after 8.9 magnitude of earthquake

and

Some "not satisfied" results in my follow up treatment

11.03.2011

Should be one of my anticipating date

Due to the premiering of Battle Los Angeles

Another disaster movie

but

Malaysia's Distributor has shifted the date to 17.03.2011

I do not remember this is the X time of my follow-up. After 6 months of radiation, I suddenly felt that something was going wrong in my feeling. Not stressful, but feeling of nothing going the right track. At first, I thought that it was the relationship between me and my coursemates. After not being with them  for almost 7 months, there should be a barrier between me and them. Eventually I found out that it was not this. Until yesterday, something I am worrying for (not everytime) has begun. The results of my follow up treatment is not 100% optimistic which I always look for. The index of optimistic has dropped slightly to 90% when there is an "irregular phase" detected by the doctor, which also further confirmed after the MRI scan. My emotion was fully affected by this incident actually.

However, I just went for a nap straight after I went back from the hospital. During night, I suddenly recalled the movie . In which there was a dialogue - Only when you believe in the existence of God, you are able to fight against the Devil. I remembered the doctor said, he felt that it was nothing bad from the "irregular phase". I believe and was confident with his conclusion. I still remembered last time before my biopsy, he felt that I had NPC, and the results was yes. This time, he felt that it was not bad, so the results should be not bad. Well, there is no 100% recovery, but as long as you can stay healthy and happily after treatment, you are considered won in the war.

My feelings got well for my health condition as nothing can be confirmed or predicted. Nevertheless, my feelings still being a bit down due to what happen to Japan yesterday. Tsunami hit. Death tolls were increasing and the whole city was swept away by the waves. OK, now what worried the country was - exposure to nuclear radiation due to leaking of the reactor. Perhaps nuclear research is important, but the incident yesterday has warned us, nuclear is not something that you can play play with. When disaster occurs, why there are still some human for being reckless and unaware of protecting the nature?

Do not regret

When the day of Earth Destroy comes

Start protecting our Earth now

before it is too late

Begin by supporting

and turning your lights off on March 26

Earth Hour